Ah yes, holidays in Australia once more. And yet the smallest amount of motivation exsists only at night where the sun isn't there to ruin my cool composure. Thus, creating my quest to destroy the sun. :evil:

I feel that sometimes i cannot submit Line Art, simple Sketches or works that could be coloured. Now that i have reached my limit of skill, i feel that if i were to submit something other than a full colour full effort image, it will seem half-assed. So annoying?

Intense concentration, i need that...so very much, especially when i have my next major submission to DA in progress. Perhaps, i should try story writing. Nice little short ones that aren't any longer than a few hundred words. I have motivation for that...at least.

All of my motivation has been redirected to online gaming! OH NOES! Is this what they call...a gaming addiction? You look forward to nothing else but recreational games!
What am i to do?

LOLZ i guess i cant have everything.
kk

*angryface* Is there some kind of mental illness for my lack of motivation?? Perhaps i have a case of "Cronic Motivation Retardedness".......y'know, some days i feel like i could get everything done in a snap.....BUT NO! I SUDDENLY HAVE A MINDFART AND END UP DOING SHIIIIIIIIT ALL! *head/desk/head/desk etc etc* (ow)

Ironic...I've had almost 3 weeks of free-time from Education. I've submitted only 2 works and now i only have 2 days of free-time left...USELESS! As soon as i left highschool all my motivation has gone down-hill, my friends always made me feel SOSPECIALHAPPYFACE!

Every time i made something new like a Roadkill Comic they'd be there saying "WHEN'S THE NEXT ONE!" *eagerface* And they'd throw out some hilarious ideas for me, which i loved and wanted to do....only with intentions to please. WHY WON'T YOU LET ME PLEASE YOU!....lol, dirty joke.

And now, oh, now it's a different story. The only time i see all of my friends together is once in a blue moon, half-passed the black stump and really awkward...well not too awkward.

PS: My teacher is an angry scottsman....so funny when we get him angry..."Floogen harken oot ma hoosa mieart, ya goot eet! Joost a wee bet! Hokay..."
Took me a while to understand him...and his accent.

LOL...have some pie

Hello, once more i have dissappeared and reappeared with one more apologetic journal to all my DA watchers, which i think may have assumed that i had died...or something.

A quick recap, i turned 18, been reading the Twilights books, visiting my beloved man whenever i can, so busy with projects both self motivated and education motivated. Thats about it, life is pretty boring at the age of 18...other than drinking, clubbing and going to parties. Those things don't happen to often either. LMAO!

I hope to put up some more artwork, so i don't lose my Deviant Art Acquaintances.

Untill next time,
...have a cookie... :3

I dreamt that i was doing the whole soldier crawl through a dense tropical jungle with the one and only Vin Deisel with mah awesome sniper rifle.

As i was crawling i can remember that i was freaked out about getting ticks on me for some reason. Then suddenly Sgt. Deisel turns around to me and says "Shhhh! We're being watched, stay low and keep an eye out."
So, just as I was alerted, i spotted some guy through some trees up ahead on a high ledge, I took aim through my scope...AND SHOT HIS BRAINS OUT!!! HEADSHOT!!!! Vinnie congratulated me!

Then suddenly, i appear back at home, being idolized by frieds and family...and my dearly beloved BF - who was quite relieved to have me home again - gave me a nice big hug and said "Don't leave again!"

I woke up feeling quite happy that i had made that awesome deadly shot, but not so proud of myself for leaving.

I know why i had this dream, it is made of the following components:

I had played a bit of Call of Duty 4 that day and had a great time sniping my BF and his brothers, then being shot several times myself.
Also, i had watched a little bit of a movie called "XXX" with Vin Deisel as the main character. No, its not Porn.

SO AWESOME!

FEAR MY EVIL ARMY OF RABID ZOMBIE LLAMAS! FOR THEY WILL TAKE OUT THEIR SHINEY RAZOR ROFL-BLADES AND CUT YOU! *slicesliceslicesliceslice*

The true calling has come to a close and is now urging me to drink myself crazy with some awesome crew mates till i pass out like a good ol pirate, wake up the next day with two wooden peg-legs.
I guess thats what they mean by getting legless...

Man i feel like cake.....*angry face*

Time to rebel......The Australian Government is once again being the biggest jerkface to the whole community!...yeah take that....i'm cool..i'm cool

Dungeons and Dragons is fun, jooiiinnnn meeeeee and become super nerdy like usss!

The word doom is used frequently in my books....



Hey look! A Distraction!


...doom...